I've been in dental "hell" since last Thursday, and while it abated yesterday, all the pain pills have wreaked havoc with my system. I've had stomach problems for days (even though I took the pills with food), and today I felt really depressed for the first time in months. And because of the effect of the pain pills, I had no energy.
Luckily, my husband went to the DVD store on the corner and got me the perfect film, Young at Heart, and I cried on and off during the entire film. It's a documentary about a group of seniors who've sung throughout the world, and are preparing for a concert. In case you haven't seen it, I won't include any spoilers, but it's a wonderful film.
Most importantly, it's guaranteed to make you cry. And today I realized that sometimes crying should be considered a wellness activity. In this case, it accomplished just what I needed, which was to release my frustrations after a lousy week.
For the last few days, I felt frustrated that despite my best efforts, my dental issues have continued. Despite my dental diligence (I even floss), we have to expend money for a new crown. Despite doing everything the dentist and periodontist recommended, the pain pills gave me a stomach ache, and caused a mini-depression. And despite trying hard to work with a few new people on writing projects, sometimes things don't work out, and it's important to know when to cut my losses.
All that tsoris (a Yiddish word meaning trouble and suffering) flooded out of my system with my tears. And once I was done crying, I could look at all the good things that have happened.
- First, I'm working on some really exciting freelance writing assignments.
- Second, I'm going to lead a terrific workshop at a wonderful conference in October (I'll be writing more about this).
- Third, my garden pruning class starts next week, and I'm really excited about it.
- Forth, other than my current dental issues, I'm feeling really well, and so is my husband and son.
- Fifth, once the pain pills are out of my system (I stopped taking them today), I'm sure my stomach problems and depression will evaporate.
- Sixth, my new dog Jack has been a terrific companion during this week-long period of dental "hell."
- Seventh, my son is liking his summer school class, and
- Eighth, my husband is loving his printmaking class.
Having said all this, and since Saturday is the 4th of July, Independence Day in the United States, I'm going to take a long weekend, and I will be back posting on Monday. Have a nice weekend, and a lovely 4th of July.




12 comments:
I have to look for that film...it always feel good to cry...so I loved movies that can make me cry. Ha ha ha!
I also feel terrible after dentist appointment...and I hate pill killers because it always gives me an upset stomach or hyperacidity.
I'm so happpy reading your list... ;)
And thanks for visiting me always. I have not paid attention to my haiku book yet.
Happy 4th of July!
Dear Mariposa,
Thanks for letting me know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I'm glad you like my list, and I'm here for you whenever you want to discuss the haiku book, whether it's in days, weeks, months, or years. There's no rush.
I hope you'll be having a massage this weekend, because that really sounds relaxing!
Susan
thanks for the movie tip...will look it up now and order it on netflix.
hope you have a nice weekend and start feeling yourself soon.
I am allergic to virtually all pain meds...in that they mess me up in the head...
I can't take them at all...they actually make pain worse because they make me hyper...very weird...
so I stick with Ibuprofen...which also has some unpleasant side effects, but it seems to work better than all the heavy hitters..
I often wonder if this might be true for a lot of other people too...
Gianna,
Actually, the pain pill I was taking was Ketoprofen, which I believe is a form of Ibuprofen (just stronger). My problem is that aside from my bout with psychiatric medication, I rarely even take aspirin.
But, it still made me sick. This morning, for the first time in a week, I'm feeling much better and although my gum still hurts, it's not killing me.
Today, I plan on researching holistic methods for healing this. If I had been thinking clearly, I would have done that first.
Yes, I think you'll love the film. It's charming, and so uplifting. You know how much I love singing, and these peoples' participation in this group made their lives worth living. One story is more inspirational than the next.
As soon as my dental problems abate, I'm going to volunteer to play my Autoharp at a senior facility. In the last few months, I realized that I could play it again without crying (because it reminds me so much of my mom).
Hope you have a lovely holiday too. Also, you'll be glad to know that we picked our first tomatoes, my jalapena pepper plant has 12 peppers, my Japanese eggplant has two tiny eggplants, we've been using the parsley I've grown and the basil, and I've just planted strawberries, a melon, and garlic.
What a hobby!
Love,
Susan
yeah, ibuprofen makes me sick too...I hate taking it...but since I've lived with chronic pain it was the least harmful pain med I could take.
it's amazing that some of us are so sensitive.
veggies are great...we've been eating exclusively from our garden for about a month now...
I love it!!
Gianna,
I do find it interesting how sensitive we are to medication. When I took all the psychiatric "crap," I constantly had to take a tiny dosage compared to what was recommended.
At one point, I opened the Cymbalta, and counted the tiny dots (only taking 23) because someone recommended doing it. It still made me sick.
Also, and I'll write about it next week, on Tuesday I'm seeing a psychotherapist who does energy work and teaches self-hynosis. I have talked with her on the telephone, and feel really good about this. I'll let you know what happens.
Susan
I agree that there is something about crying that does the body and mind some good!! Crying is usually my last resort - even though I would feel much better much faster if I just let it out.
Your list sounds like a gratitude list - isn't that a wellness activity you've written about in the past?
In light of the type of week you've had, I think it's pretty normal that you feel "depressed". When life gets too heavy, it has to compensate somewhere. It's our bodies way of saying "Don't brush this off. Deal with these feelings!" My good friend once told me that "feelings are feelings and that we need to feel them until they are all gone, whatever they might be." I think of that often and let myself feel whatever it is, no matter how silly or small it might seem.
Hope your tummy feels better once the meds have moved on.
Thinking of you. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!!
Dear Paula Joy,
I was thinking that someone wrote about the value of a good cry, and it must have been you.
Yes, the list is a gratitude list, and it is a wellness activity. Thanks for noticing.
This morning I'm feeling much better. For some reason, I was craving Cheerios, a cereal I haven't eaten in years, and it tasted so good to me.
I'm just sending a few emails, and then Jack and I are off for a walk. I finally was able to walk him late last night, but he's been missing his two daily walks and so have I.
If I feel really well tomorrow, I'm going to take him to the beach. As far as I know, he's never seen the ocean before!
Susan
P.S. It kind of feels like taking a child to do something they've never done. Except, his tail wagging going into overdrive!
Have a super July 4th! I hate having dental issues so I am so sorry. I do find that if I have not cried in a while, after a good cry I feel a lot better!
Dear KJ,
The cry was great. I felt so much better. The film I watched made me realize how small an issue this dental stuff is. Worse than the pain was all the money it's costing, but that, too, is something we can handle. It just hit us at a really bad time.
I think the worst part is that I never take medication (except Adderall when I need it), and the pain pills not only gave me a "bad stomach," but caused me to feel slightly depressed. And it brought back memories of all those years of taking medication that made me so truly ill I don't want to think about it ever again.
But I'm trying self-hypnosis next week and we'll see how that works. Thanks for writing. Hope you and the kids have a wonderful holiday.
Love,
Susan
Hi Susan,
Happy July 4th to you!
I feel so fortunate that I seem to be able to withstand so many meds without too many problems with side effects. How lucky I am! I'm amazed that even ibuprofen gives you problems.
Your list looks wonderful. Sounds like a list a very healthy person would make.
And yes, I love good cries too. I should look up that movie as well.
So good to visit you again. Sorry I've been away so long.
Love, marja
Dear Marja,
So glad to hear from you, and I'm delighted you're feeling better. Yes, it is a lot for which to be grateful!
And, I've never been able to take Ibuprofen so I should have known better. Alas...
Susan
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