I want to thank everyone who's commented in the last few weeks. I'm too tired to list all your names and attach the links, but I genuinely appreciate it. Your positive comments make all the difference, and I always forget how important our virtual support group is when I'm struggling with whether or not to continue this blog.
Actually, I did discuss my blog in therapy this week, although I'd already written Monday's post when I talked to my therapist. I told him about my vacillation and how embarrassing it was getting.
In fact, I'm well aware it's a pattern (All I have to do is to read my own posts to figure it out), which oddly enough hasn't stopped me from continuing it. I also realize that I'm often ready to quit after going through a long depression or when a new one hits.
And he gave me great advice. He suggested it's part of an "all or nothing" syndrome and said that other clients, even those who aren't bipolar, struggle with it. What he also said is that it's possible to have conflicting feelings and not to act on them. Rather, he recommended it would be a good idea to carry both feelings until I examine them and decide what to do. And, of course, it never needs to be "all or nothing," does it?
While it would seem obvious, I somehow didn't think of it that way. I know that acting quickly on something is a personality trait. I also realized that I've been an "all or nothing" type person for decades. But, I believe it's never to late to change traits that make our lives more difficult, and add to our stress levels. So, perhaps this, too, shall pass.
Question for today: Are you an "all or nothing" person, and do you think it's a bipolar symptom? (If you were and changed, how did you do it?)