As I mentioned in an earlier post, I have known for years that my depressions have a seasonal element. About 12 years ago, I tried a light box and it didn't work. Last week, a new neighbor moved next door from Washington state, and she gave me a dawn simulator, which I've been using for a few days. It's too soon to tell if it's working, but I'll keep you posted.
Also, I thought I'd share an additional bit about medication. As most of you know, I've been off all medication for months. But...about three weeks ago, due to the change of seasons I began feeling a little bit down, and I've needed to take 10 mg. of Adderall in the morning because I've had early morning obligations and didn't have time to awaken more slowly, take a walk, and do my usual wellness activities.
The Adderall does the trick, but the problem is that when I take it--even if it's just a small amount--my mood elevates throughout the day. And by the time I'm ready to go to bed--usually at midnight, I'm not tired. So, I have to take Ativan to sleep. Although I'm only taking 1/2 mg. of Ativan, and while it's not supposed to have a residual effect, it does.
In fact, it's ever so clear to me why my depressions lasted for so many years. At one time, all the medication I was taking caused terrible mood swings, which I had never experienced before I started taking medication. And it also caused heightened hypomanias. My psychiatrist at the time said, "Sleep is really important, so I don't care if you become addicted to Ativan."
What he didn't say was that the more Ativan I took at night--and at one point I was taking 7 mg.--the worse I felt in the morning. And for me, Ativan has always been the most difficult medication to titrate off. It takes me months to get off 2 mg.
What's interesting is that even with the small dosage I took last week, I could barely sleep for the first three days of titrating off it, and I also had terrible night sweats. And once again, the minute I stopped taking it, I had terrible dreams that were so vivid, and lasted interminably. It usually takes a few weeks for these to subside.
On a related subject...when yet another friend recently told me about her son who's taking a ton of psychiatric medication and getting worse and worse, I didn't know what to say. My feeling is that her son should titrate off everything since they have no idea what's wrong with him and yet have piled one drug on top of another, and he's feeling worse and worse.
But, I don't even have a recommendation for a good doctor--psychiatrist or otherwise--who could help him determine what is truly the matter. Now, that's depressing!
FYI...I'm having a really busy week so I apologize if I'm not able to visit your blogs. Also, while I will respond to comments, it may take me hours to moderate them and write a response. I promise I will respond...just not in a timely fashion! Have a happy and healthy week!