I know I promised to post today about my mood charts, but please bear with me for a few days. As many of you know, I still take Adderall for depression and Ativan to sleep at night. But for the last week or so I've been hypomanic. Usually when that happens, I immediately go off the Adderall because my body no longer can tolerate it, and taking it heightens the hypomania.
For some reason, I am unable to get out of bed these days without the 10 mg. of Adderall in the morning. I have tried to replace it with coffee and Coca-Cola because caffeine has worked in the past. But it's not working now. I have tried to replace it with a morning walk, but that's not working either.
A few days ago, I realized that the problem is the Ativan, which I always start titrating off as soon as I go off the Adderall. I only need Ativan at night when I take a stimulant in the morning. So, two nights ago I stopped the Ativan "cold turkey" and stopped the Adderall yesterday morning.
While I feel I should offer a disclaimer, "Don't do this without the supervision of a doctor," my doctors have always felt I am qualified to make these decisions myself because I'm more knowledgeable about how my body reacts to medication than anyone else is. And since I respond to medication differently than most people, I am usually the one who decides what to do and when.
Anyway, the bottom line is that it worked. While I didn't sleep very well the first night (which always happens for a month or so when I stop taking Ativan), I was fine yesterday without the stimulant. But I was very tired last night and didn't have the energy to write today's post about mood charts, which is more complicated that just providing an update on my health.
So...have a nice day! I'll cover mood charts tomorrow. Stay tuned! And if you truly want to have a lovely day, visit Create and Live Happy (if the Magnolia tree doesn't make you smile, nothing will), Joyously Becoming (her art is also wonderful), and read about Grace, The Dove on Annie's blog.