This is a continuation of yesterday's post in which I discuss the value of keeping mood charts, and discuss how I used them, and what I learned from keeping a detailed record for six years.
6. At one point, I was so sick I thought I was going to die from psychic pain. My current psychiatrist had prescribed a bunch of new medications that were far more toxic than what I'd been taking. The side-effects were terrible. And I truly was at a loss.
What I decided to do was to take all of my mood charts from the previous months, and do poster board charts with all the medications and a one line description of how I felt. My hope was to see if anything had really helped, and if I had ever felt better.
My own feeling is that without charts, most people have no memory of how they feel. We all know that when we're terribly depressed it's almost impossible to remember when we felt well. And, at least for me, when I'm terribly well, I can't imagine that I ever felt awful beyond belief.
It turned out that my experiment was a failure, but it still served a purpose. The point is that I truly believe that a computerized version of our mood charts could work. And think of this...what if...everyone who's bipolar and has mood charts could feed their info into a database. And what if...we would go online and see what combination of medications and/or alternative methods of healing like exercise, meditation, neural path therapy etc. work for people like us.
What I mean by this is...if I'm categorized as atypical bipolar II, and if I believe that my illness is truly clinical depression and that my mood swings were caused by medication, where can I find a list of people like me who have healed themselves? How did they do it? What treatments did they use?
If they're taking medications, which ones and in what dosages? If they're exercising, what specific exercises are they doing? If they employ other methods of healing, specifically what are they doing?
(more to come)