Before I post today, I would like to thank the following people for their responses to my last posting: daryl darko, Micky, Marja, Terry, Gay Bipolar Guy, Cindy, Marie, and Carrie. I greatly appreciate your comments and concern.
I think that one of the downsides of hypomania that we don't know enough about is the irritability and annoyance phase. I finally realized that I haven't been mildly depressed for the last few weeks: rather, I've been irritable and easily annoyed.
Why is that? Perhaps together we can figure it out.
Do you have these periods? When do you get them? Is it after or during hypomanic episodes? Do you suddenly feel that perhaps you've been giving too much and getting too little? Does something switch inside you? When do you realize that the pleasure of helping others has faded and you have needs you'd like someone else to fulfill?
Do you ever think: I've been there for others. Who is there for me? Who is going to buoy me up when I feel a bit down? Who is going to provide the uplifting remark, the praise, the positive comment? Who is going to say: How can I help you? What can I do for you?
(to be continued)