2015: A New Beginning
Dear Friends,Today is Thanksgiving, a national holiday. While its purpose is to celebrate the harvest, since neither I nor anyone I know lives on a farm, for years I have viewed this holiday as a time for self-reflection...a time to think about the things for which I feel thankful, the people who are important to me, and the ways in which I am contributing to world in which I live.
“Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it.” ~ William Arthur Ward
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sitting at a computer for hours at a time to read comments and respond to them, and read other blogs, had begun feeling very restrictive. Actually, spending too much time each day on the computer doesn't make me feel well.
When I awakened this morning, however, I suddenly realized that after six years of pretending that I hadn't been thinking about illness and wellness, I had been deluding myself. In fact, almost everything I do and have done is motivated by seeking wellness, and avoiding illness.
During my hiatus from blogging, I've pursued a lot of new hobbies and interests. While other people in workshops or classes wanted to develop new skills, or perfect the ones they had, for me, everything was a wellness activity. So, my motivation and goals have always been different than those of the people I've met. And, my mood changes have affected my experiences as well. And I had no one--other than my husband and therapist-- with whom to share that.
What I suddenly realized this morning was that despite my enjoyment of most of the activities I have pursued during my time off, there has been a great void in my life. I haven't felt like I've been helping anyone, or contributing anything, and the best way I know of doing that is through writing this blog."What had been missing during my hiatus was a community of like-minded people with whom I could share my successes and failures."
And, thus Thanksgiving is the perfect holiday on which to begin anew. I wish to thank the people who were part of our original community, and those will be part of this new one.
Because this is a spontaneous decision, I will figure out more of the logistics in the coming weeks. However, since I do want to post today, I need to issue a few caveats:
1. To me, the Internet doesn't seem as friendly as it once was. People leave horrible comments and say harmful things. So...the rule here is that I only allow positive comments. My goal when I started this blog--and still is--was to build a supportive community of like-minded people who are trying to achieve wellness.
2. I only will be reading comments once a day...late at night, and I'm not yet sure if I plan on responding to them. When I blogged before, it took a lot of time to respond, and I checked my computer during the day. But, I now spend my days doing wellness activities, pursuing my passions, or being with friends, and it defeats the purpose if I have to be on the computer. I will initially allow comments without moderation, but that will change if they are mean-spirited or if people post only to advertise a product or promote themselves.
3. During my absence, I removed all the blogs of people I read or people who read my blog. The reason was because blogs come and go, and I've been to sites where few of the links are current. After doing some research, I will add some sites in the future.
4. Finally, for new readers, this isn't a traditional bipolar blog. While I spent 10 years researching bipolar and depression topics, read more than 100 books, hundreds of articles, and was up-to-date on the latest research, I'm not anymore. Nor do I care to be. This is a personal blog about my wellness journey, and topics that interest me. There are many other blogs if you're looking for the standard issues relating to diagnosis, symptoms, medication, etc., and I will recommend some of them in the coming weeks.
To everyone, I hope you have been well in the past six years, and I look forward to having you join me on this leg of our mutual journey! As always, I am thankful for your support!